Living in Almost, but Not Quite

© 2012 by Heather Palmer

 

Almost, but Not Quite is a place where every writer will find themselves at one point or another in their career. Right now, I am SO queen of this land. It’s not a fun place to be, but for now it’s where I need to be.

As writers, we have a craft to learn. There are so many facets of this craft and learning them takes time. Most days I find myself impatient, hungry, and chomping madly at the air around me trying to force something to happen in my writing career. I’ve discovered this does nothing other than make me more frustrated and discouraged with my current state.

Now, I’m not some self-pitying, wallowing kind of person. I’ve been writing since I can remember, penning my first stories with one of those fat pencils children use to learn to write with. Writing is in my blood. The essence of stories slides through my veins with every beat of my heart.

This week I didn’t final in yet another contest, but what I have learned is far more powerful than a certificate I can hang on the wall of my office. I got feedback.

And…with feedback comes rejection.

Rejection is part of being a writer and regardless of how long you’ve been honing your craft and plying your words we all must find ways to deal with rejection. For me, I give myself a short amount of time to wallow, to scream, to cry and wail at the world in general and then…I suck it up. Having tough skin in the writing world is a MUST.

Being a writer, you know everyone is not going to drop to their knees and kiss the pages of whatever awesome story you’ve churned out in a raging fit of inspiration. Writing takes work–A LOT of work. Part of our jobs is to ensure our work is ready. And for me, I know because of this recent feedback, it’s not quite ready.

Almost.

But not quite.

So, what do you do? I ask myself often…how bad do I want this? How bad can I taste a publishing contract on my tongue? Many of you will have the same answer: so bad you can feel the sharp, thin edge of the paper slicing into your flesh and drawing blood. This blood is rich with every ounce of effort you have expended into creating the best work you can offer.

But again, you could still reside in Almost.

Follow your ritual. Work through whatever you need to pick yourself up and get back into your chair and at your keyboard. Drink your wine and eat your chocolate. Hide in bed for a day. Pick up your favorite author’s book and read it again for the millionth time to solidify WHY you do what you do. Then…get back to work.

Fix what you know needs fixed. Revise like the hounds of hell are nipping at your tired feet. Now for me, I hate revision. I would rather have every hair plucked out of my scalp one strand at a time than sit down and pour through the same manuscript I have written four times.

Four times.

Today, I start round five.

You are not alone in this. Writing is a journey and we must embrace that part of us which makes us whole–the part of us that calls to our souls every waking and sleeping moment of our lives. The part we cannot and will not abandon. No matter how many times we have to polish and cleanse.

When we accomplish this…we WILL move beyond Not Quite into the land of I Have Finally Made It.

Oh, but here’s the painful part…then we start all over again.

Love what you do. Live for it, eat it, breathe it and sleep it.

And one day you will make it out into the world of being published and so will I.

 

Until the next bite…Heather

My Top 10 Vamp Books and Movies

© 2012 by Heather Palmer

Well here it is Sunday again, which means a new blog post. I’ve been thinking on what I wanted to post all week. I decided to share with you a piece of me. All these books and movies have influenced me or my writing in some way. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been fascinated by horror movies. Though I have to say some were lacking when it comes to special effects or strong plots. I always get a laugh out of the large breasted women who walk into a darkened room, chest thrust out and feigned fear in their eyes and what do they do?

Walk in and call out “Hello? Is anyone there?”

I mean really.

Ah, but isn’t this part of why we love bad acting/script writing with the lame music. So we can sit on our comfortable couches and chairs, laughing at the ridiculousness of it all. I know I do.

Which brings me to my…

Top 10 vampire movies:

  1. Bram Stoker’s Dracula – My all time fav. Oh yes and let’s not forget Keanu Reeves.
  2. Queen of the Dammed – Stuart Townsend rocked this one.
  3. Underworld (all of them) – I shamelessly admit I have a thing for Kate Beckinsale and Scott Speedman.
  4. Interview with the Vampire – Brad Pit and Tom Cruise what isn’t to love here?
  5. The Lost Boys – I fell for Corey Haim and a new obsession was born.
  6. From Dusk Till Dawn – Selma Hayek and the snake…enough said.
  7. Buffy the Vampire Slayer – Like totally…
  8. Van Helsing – Kate again and this time with Hugh Jackman.
  9. Dracula (the 1931 classic) – This had to be on the list.
  10. Nosferatu (1922) – And the beginning of it all one of the earliest vampire films ever made.

I’ll have to do another post on who plays the best Dracula so stay tuned and check back in so you don’t miss it!

As far as writing goes, there are some really great paranormal writers out there. One day I hope to have my name show up on someone’s list. I’ve always been a voracious reader, but I think I really fell for the genre in junior high. These authors will always hold a special place in my heart.

Top 10 vampire books:

  1. Bram Stoker’s Dracula – The beginning. For which I have traveled to Ireland and seen an original copy of this book. One of favorite memories.
  2. Interview with the Vampire – Anne Rice. My first ride into the adult vampire scene.
  3. The Vampire Diaries – L.J. Smith – my teenage obsession.
  4. Forever and the Night – Linda Leal Miller. This series made me want to write vampire romance more than anything in the world.
  5. Halfway to the Grave – Jeaniene Frost – I am so in love with Cat and Bones.
  6. The Last Vampire – Chrisopher Pike – Again with the teenage infatuation.
  7. Christine Feehan – any of her books qualify for this list.
  8. J.R. Ward – same goes here for all her books.
  9. Shayla Black – another all time fav of mine
  10. And last, but by far the least, Sherrilyn Kenyon.

So that’s it, the books and movies that fuel my passions. How about you? Who would be on your list? Please leave me a comment I love to hear from all of you!

Until next time….

Just One Bite

One bite…

That’s all it takes to change your life forever.

Hmm…that sounds like some kind of cheesy infomercial line you’d hear on television in the early morning hours. But we’re not talking about miracle makeup or a magic pill to help you lose weight. No, tonight, we’re talking about how one bite opens a doorway into a world where darkness rules and every whim is possible.

Mind you I said darkness, not evil.

In this realm, vampires rule the night. They walk among the living, another species mankind was never meant to contend with. But the battle is not what calls to us…it’s the bite.

The unspoken promise of forever is what draws us in. The lure of something different…

Fresh.

Exhilarating.

A life bordering on the edge of darkness where there is no fear, consequences or rules.

How far into the darkness are you willing to go…for a bite?

Vampires are capable of challenging death, staring the Reaper in the face and saying, “bring it on”. Imagine, for a moment, the possibility of an endless stretch of nights before you. What could you accomplish? What could you learn?

Most important, how would you live? You could choose good…or maybe…not.

The entire world placed before your feet, for only the paltry price of a little, tiny bite.

Would you answer yes on a breath of pleasure?

I would.

Oh, but vampires offer so much more than immortality. They offer a life on the fringes, somewhere between darkness and light. A constant push/pull between what makes them human and the predators they are. The kiss of darkness on their soul beckons to an elemental aspect of our humanity. For we fear death and they own it.

Command it.

Wield it like a shield before them, cutting down any who cross their path. Wicked, gleaming fangs bore to those who dare challenge their power.

A being so in command they instill submission in their prey with the slightest press of sharp teeth against warm flesh. Own a gaze intense enough to heat you from the inside out from a mere glance in your direction. Entice you to cross the threshold of day into eternal night because, deep down, you know it’s where you belong.

All you have to do is tilt your head.

Are you with me?

This really hit home for me today.

Writers In The Storm Blog

This week, Writers In The Storm is kicking off a new series for the Fall…sort of a “Be All That You Can Be” series for writers. The inaugural post comes out on Wednesday.

In honor of this, our own Jenny Hansen gave us today’s blog about discovering what you’re good at and doing it!

What Are Your Strengths?

CELEBRATE THEM!

As a corporate software trainer, I’ve got to be ON each day I’m in the classroom.

It doesn’t matter whether I was up all night with a screaming baby or if my best friend and I had a fight. Nobody cares about those things when they come in for a day of Word or Excel or leadership training. They’re focused on what they need to learn and it’s my job to deliver.

There are personality types who would hate my job. They’d get tired by all that “on” business. I see…

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The Unsung Hero

© 2012 by Heather Palmer

Today is the launch of my blog site. I had planned on giving you a blog about the Law of Attraction, but as I lay in the dark in the early morning hours in the warmth and safety of my bed another topic infiltrated my thoughts. As a writer we are often asked to create larger than life characters, heroes or alpha males with a sexual potency alluring enough to ensnare even the most unsuspecting reader into the clutches of our stories.

This week another anniversary of 9/11 will pass, a day in America that will mark our history for eternity. Last night, I sat with my 11-year old nephew on the couch astounded and proud he was so moved by the two-hour documentary recounting the events of that awful day. As we watched, I recalled where I had been on September 11th, 2001; once more cocooned in the comfort of my bed as the world around me trembled.

I have been to the site of the twin towers where they once stood in all their glory. I have touched the names engraved into the wall of the many who gave their lives on that terror-filled day. I have also touched the names of many who have done the same in the name of our country in Washington D.C. The somberness is prevalent at all of these places and will always be present, but burning bright as we work to re-build the towers, hope burns like a living, breathing flame.

A hero can be anyone. Man or woman, adult or child, and sometimes…maybe not even human. Not so long ago there was a commercial on television that always brought tears to my eyes every time I saw it. It showed normal, everyday people doing something nice for someone else out of the sheer kindness of their hearts. These are the unsung heroes I speak of.

The world is composed of people who do this on a daily basis and without tribute or even so much as a thank you. Many of these same people were among the nearly three thousand that gave the greatest sacrifice of all: their lives. I encourage all of you to take a moment this week to stop and look for the unsung heroes in your world and thank them.

To all of you who have given, might give and will give your lives for this country; I thank you.

And most of all…we will never forget.